Chapter 22 Having Her
Natalie’s POV
I never expected that Raf would follow me!
When he appeared in front of the hotel room door, I was surprised. After I gained my composure, I attempted to make him leave. I can’t make him wait for a man who will never show up.
I was upset with him. How dare he come after me after what he did at the party? What does he want from me now?
However, he barged in as if it was his property and his actions surprised me. The more I push him away and hurt him, the more he sticks and touches me.
The impudent dared to take off my bathrobe!
I was acting strong even though my heart was shaking with fear. I wasn’t really afraid of him, but I’d never seen him act in such a savage way. Rafael was always a reasonable person who never acted rashly. And now, it seemed like it wasn’t him anymore.
However, I lasted in that way of acting until he took off his pants!! This was the act that changed everything.
Oh God! This was really happening. He pushed me onto the bed without hesitation. Even though I was hoping for that moment with him and here I am naked beneath him, I banked. I wasn’t ready. I don’t want things to happen in that way. And a lot of questions were scrambled inside my head. Like, why was he here? Why wasn’t he with Debbie?
Out of fear, I told him the truth.
He froze.
“Virgin?” he asked.
If the situation wasn’t the way it was, I would have laughed at his facial expressions.
I can sense his tension though. He stared at me blankly, his storm of emotions stopped. He was studying my experience, then pulled himself out of bed. I quickly covered my body.
After he calmed himself down, he kissed my head, and started stroking my hair. I think he was trying to calm me down.
He sniffed my hair then lifted my face. Staring into my eyes, he said, “I’m sorry. Did I hurt you?”
After a short while, we started kissing again. It was a soft kiss. Little by little we deepened our kiss. He leaned me back on the bed. The only thing separating our naked bodies was the thin bedsheet.
I felt his desire. His need. All the logic was blocked away at those moments. I couldn’t think of anything just our bodies needs.
But he stopped suddenly. He stopped kissing and touching me. I felt cold even though he was still covering my body with his large muscular body.
“Are you going to retreat now?” I asked, trying to make my voice neutral.
“I’ve never been with a virgin, Natalie,” he said nervously, looking into my eyes. “I don’t know how to be gentle. I don’t do gentle.”Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.
I laughed at him, trying to ease the awkwardness, “I can’t believe you’re nervous about making love. Who’s the virgin, me or you!?”
“That’s the point. I don’t make love. I just fuck. I do it in severe ways” he said.
At that moment, as a girl ignorant of sex matters, I thought he was exaggerating. I didn’t think he was telling a hint of the whole truth.
“I’m afraid I will hurt you, and you will never forgive me!”
I sighed. I felt awkward. Isn’t he supposed to be the one reassuring me and not the other way around? Aren’t I the virgin here?
“So, what do you suggest? Skip this moment and postpone it until I become no longer a virgin!?” I teased him.
I was supposed to be the one who was afraid, especially after what he had done a little while ago. But it doesn’t seem like that!
He narrowed his eyes and asked, “And how do you plan to make yourself not a virgin?”
I rolled my eyes. He grabbed my chin tightly and stared into my eyes, “Don’t even try to think of it again! You are MINE. YOUR VIRGINITY IS MINE”
I was just teasing him, so I nodded.
“Will you bear me?” he asked again.
I raised an eyebrow and said, “This is getting boring!”
He laughed, “You can’t wait any longer? So, what do you want? What do you want me to do, Natalie?”
When he whispered his last sentence, a chill ran down my spine.
He was on top of me on the bed, looking charming. His attractive scent made me melt.
“I will do my best to be gentle this time. If you get hurt just say stop, okay?” he said and kissed my forehead.
He made me feel as if he was going to war. Not just making love.
He caressed my cheek and said, “Mrs. Merrin, would you allow your husband to have sex with you? To finally fuck you?”
His words got to my soul. It’s just I wished he had said love not sex, but for now I don’t care.
“Hmm…. You are polite”, I mumbled.
He raised an eyebrow and said,
“I could be not, if you said no though!”
Our eyes met with intense looks full of passion. Then he took me to another world, another world that I had never been in before. He kissed every inch of my body and made me fly into a dream world.
I don’t think I’d ever been able to feel my body more than I do now.
His professional touch invaded every part of my body. I tried to keep up with him and kiss him back, but I lost myself in the middle of the lust.
I couldn’t control the gasps that escaped my mouth. Every cell of my body was trembling.
He whispered in my ear, “Are you ready for me? Would you let me in, wify? I promise I won’t hurt you”
Once he thrust, I felt the pain and my body cramped, but it was a temporary pain. With his care and passionate kisses, he erased the pain.
There was no sound in the room except our panting breaths.