Chapter 140: I Can’t Be With Him
Arianna had been out of the deal for a long time. His sudden and powerful intrusion made her body bend into a shrimp shade in pain. He stroked her ridge and waist and kissed her forehead and lips, but the other hand held her hand firmly. He didn’t mean to stop at all.
They didn’t integrate well at first. Arianna’s body was initially repulsive. She was stiff. And his elegance and nobleness were gone in bed. She struggled, screamed, and cried.
Later, the two finally were on the right track. In his powerful, repeated hit, she was like a branch in a storm and a boat in the waves. She could only hold his shoulders and waist, clutching his hips, groaning under his body, leaving the prints of her fingernails on his back.
Vince suddenly stopped when she was forced to the edge of madness. He put his head on her neck and breathed and said, “Wait for a second, I forgot something.”
Arianna shuddered and reached for his waist, her voice trembling, “It’s okay… doesn’t matter.”
Then Vince returned to her body like a crazy seed, growing wildly because of the nurturing rain, taking up every bit of space he could. She was out of her mind and her breath.
When he exploded in her body, Arianna grabbed his hair and tried to bite his shoulder.
The two of them were exhausted, sleeping like babies, and their limbs were still entangled. They didn’t even wash, and they were stuck together by sweaty skin.
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In the middle of the night, Arianna was awakened by the cool breeze blowing in from the window and the sticky discomfort. She took a lot of effort to free herself from the twisted shape of the two people. She wanted to sneak to have a bath but still awakened Vince. He softly asked, “What are you going to do?” His injured voice sounded hoarse and ambiguous.
A few minutes later, in the luxurious bathroom of this hotel, Arianna closed her eyes and let Vince gently stroke her hair, using his fingers to wipe off the foam on her body.
They returned to the bed and began round two. Unlike the previous stormy style, Vince’s movements became meticulous, but Arianna still experienced the constant switch between heaven and hell under his body.
They went to take a shower again, and Venus had already slid to the east. Vince sat on the bed and rubbed his hair. Seeing Arianna’s hair still dripping with water, he said, “Come here, let me wipe it for you, or you will have a headache tomorrow.”
Arianna asked, “Vince, do you want to drink milk?”
“Nice.”
“Add sugar?”
“Up to you.”
Arianna added sugar to both glasses of milk. In fact, it was not just sugar but mixed with sleeping pills, which was a must-have item for Arianna before going to bed.
She put the milk to Vince. It was said that he had been negotiating for several nights. He didn’t sleep well for her business in the past two days, and today he didn’t sleep well for her to the maximum extent. He could barely open his eyes.
After drinking the milk, he said with a sleepy voice, “We tomorrow…”
Arianna interrupted him, “Let’s talk tomorrow.”
Early the next morning, Arianna got up as usual. She had the gift of being able to recover after a night of physical exhaustion quickly.
Vince slept very quietly, like a child. Arianna called him softly, “Vince, Vince!” He didn’t move at all.
She re-covered him with the bedsheet, picked up the clothes scattered on the floor, carefully folded them, and placed them on the chair by the bed. She rinsed again. Under the water, she leaned against the bathroom and cried. The water washed away her tears, and the sound of the water covered her crying.
Arianna changed her clothes, put on light makeup in front of the mirror, and picked up her compact suitcase.
She pondered. After all, she couldn’t leave without saying goodbye, so she left a note saying “Farewell” on the table. When she walked to the door, she remembered he had booked this room, so she put down a traveler’s check with enough money on the table. Then she went out. Nobody was blocking her way.
Arianna flew to another city by plane, then took trains and boats. She went to many places in a few days. She wasn’t sure whether Vince would look for her, but she deliberately left no traces.Property © NôvelDrama.Org.
Arianna’s original intention was to travel, but her thoughts were chaotic. She didn’t appreciate the scenery, but she didn’t have the courage to go home. On the third day, she was sick. She only drank a lot of water and had a lot of sweat, with her body covered tightly by a quilt. And she recovered the next day. But on this day, she was too exhausted to wander around. She sat in a small church for an afternoon until she was the only one in the church.
The priest came to her and said, “You don’t look good. Is there anything I can do for you?”
Arianna thought for a long time and said, “I am reflecting on myself. I have done a lot of wrong things. Every time I thought I was right and innocent, but every time I found out that I had done something wrong. I hurt myself and hurt others.”
“You have already realized your fault, which is the right thing.”
“I am very contradictory, priest. I have a former enemy, yes, just once. If I stayed with him, I wouldn’t be able to face my family, so I left him and refused his good intentions. But later, I feel I am very sorry for him.”
“The Lord said,” Love our enemies.” Dear Miss, forgiving our enemies is forgiving ourselves.”
“I can’t be with him. If that happens, I will lose all faith and support, and I will look down on myself.”
The priest sighed, “Since you already know what you want, why are you feeling contradictory?”
Arianna whispered, “What I want most is always the peace of mind. But since I knew he might still be alive, I lost this peace. And when I begin thinking that I want a child who looks like him, I know that I have lost this peace forever. I couldn’t get it. Father, I don’t want to be with him, but I want to have a child with him, even if it is a child that looks like him. I just can’t forgive myself.”
“Sorry, I am a little confused. This person, is he alive, or is he already dead?”